WATCHING THE WORLD

I wish there were things I could say to make this hurt go away. The burden you have to carry and the pain that's in your heart, I would trade a million times for you to have a fresh new start. Don't worry now things may seem so hard, but you have already come so far.  My dear, I have to tell you how proud of you I am and that no matter where life takes you, ill always take your hand.

My writing may it be small or large always has a special meaning behind it and those who read it get it. I don't have to explain. I think we all have our talents and I am glad that mine is to reach out to people thru my writing because it really is my best way to communicate.

Thats all for now

ALEX

It's A Womans World

My life has this time where it stops for no reason
Maybe its just the change in the season
I hope it starts to look up again
So I can come up with a new plan

I dont know how I really feel but this feelings got me here and Im sorry for the way I was trying to be  better for tomorrow cause never know whats gonna hit ya if ya in the wrong place lucks gotcha on lockdown welcome to my town these faces and these place got me wishin I was somewhere else never felt like this is where im suppose to be but i see that its where im at so I just deal that the fact of this is real and I open my eyes and realize Im a better person today better than I was yesterday....

Trying to rap LMAO...
so yesterdays BRONCOS game was bad...Im hoping things go better next game(and maybe put tebow in longer)..just a suggestion...


Thats all I have right now!!

ALEX

My thoughts

I sit here in my hollow shell


Noone understands how I feel

My life moves forward

But I stand still



My past comes to haunt me

I sulk in self pity

Cant seem to shake this pain

Not you, its my shame



I try to speak

Feels like time wasted

Now look at this

Person I have created



Drown myself in song

Because atleast they show emotion

Try and understand

Its me not you



One day I will find myself

Smile again and laugh

But now a cloud hangs over

I need time to recover

Life from the inside looking out

I walk around and observe life's great things.  I wonder if anyone notices? Their is this christian song(which i don't listen to any these days). It's by Michael W. Smith, Place in this world. I guess that is what I am doing. Just trying to find my place. Trying to figure out which direction to go in life. No one understands my thoughts. This is why I started a blog. So that you people will have a better understanding.
  I am not all there in there in the head. That's why when I talk people laugh..Laugh at me or with me, I don't care. I also do a lot of writing. Mostly poems and such, but I would love to be a songwriter one day. I love History. Mostly WWII stuff and a creepy interest in Hitler.I have two turtles. Ones name is dudeson and the other Cal. Jr. They are lovely creatures.I am also Tim Tebow fan and will probably talk a lot about Denver and Florida Gators during the football season. I think he is an awesome person,on and off the field. I have heard all the "tebow crying" jokes. That got old after a day. Of course, if you knew the relationship he had to Coach Urban Myer and the rest of the team. Hard work those guys put in and the fact that it was the championship of his senior year. I completely understand why he was emotional. Talk all you want about Tebow but I will always be a fan. I like a lot of music. I am very open minded. I listened to country growing up considering I am originally from MS. During my late teen years I started listening to more rock. I love the 60's and 70's...some 80's and the 90's definitely bring back memories. My first album I ever bought was Hanson! So any suggestions on good music is always welcome. I use music as my escape. I think better when I am listening to music. I love eminem. I think he is by far the best rapper out there. Anyone can rap, but he makes it personal, to where other people can relate. His music helped a lot in my teens too.
   My parents are divorced and have been since I was 8. My mom and I have an odd relationship. I love her but not sure if the feeling is reciprocated sometimes. My Daddy is the most amazing guy in the world. My Aunt Debbie and my Gma pretty much raised me. I am the 2nd of 3 children. My oldest is Leslie and things go back and forth with her. My Best friend is Katie. She has never let me down and I know I can count on her for anything especially advice! I am dating someone right now Jimmy James. Things are going well with us. We have our ups and downs but who doesn't, right? No one is perfect.
    Well, I think that is it for now. This is my first blog of many to come!
HOPE YOU ENJOYED A LITTLE INSIGHT ABOUT ME!!!